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lovinglust @ 2005-09-20T23:18:00

2005-09-21T02:19:46Z

u g h . . .

lovinglust @ 2005-07-20T16:21:00

2005-07-20T20:23:06Z

jessica is cool (okay she told me to write that)

well im back on live journal for now.. the LJ DRAMA has seem to calm down a bit so im going to be writing some..

almost 4 months for me and my boyfriend.. never thought we'd last this long..
<333333333333333

dont you wish your boyfriend was hot like mine :DDDD
gigida gigida gigida

lovinglust @ 2005-04-28T20:03:00

2005-04-29T03:02:36Z

i dont know if im even looking forward to him anymore..

lovinglust @ 2005-04-19T14:43:00

2005-04-19T21:41:25Z

9 days till i get to see my baby baby baby baby

lovinglust @ 2005-04-12T13:33:00

2005-04-12T20:31:40Z

yes, i love jerrell sheppard..

lovinglust @ 2005-04-03T21:55:00

2005-04-04T01:59:15Z

so i havent written in over a month, i need a break from.. well just from life in general..

not alot has been going on.. you know same old same old.. well i really dont have anything to say, lol ill update later

lovinglust @ 2005-02-24T17:48:00

2005-02-25T00:48:16Z

If you woke up and I was in bed with you, what would be your first thought?

(now post this in your LJ and find out what mine would be.)

lovinglust @ 2005-02-21T18:11:00

2005-02-22T01:10:25Z

i know that im not much to brag about but i'm just go to state the facts. if you know anything about me then you know im a totally awesome person. yet i have these dipshits spewing random nonsense out of their mouth about how much i suck when they cant even define the word right...it just baffles my mind beyond belief and i'm seriously having to deal with these smuchs.

i think people talk shit to:
1. be in the IN crowd
2. because of jealousy
3. because their friends did it so now they want to feel cool
4. just because they don't know any better
5. because they're smuchs
6. because they think other people will praise them for it.

let's analyze this for a minute. i've never been one to just talk shit for no reason. i retaliate against people who do it to me. maybe that isn't the greatest course of action but who cares.

to be in the IN crowd:
this one is notorious because you got these fuckers who are ring leaders of some of the gayest bunch of lamers you've ever seen in your life. they decide to get an attitude so all of their brown nosing cronies do the exact same thing and start yapping about god knows what.

because of jealousy:
this one i agree with a lot more. i'm not a conceited person. but seriously, i have a great future lying ahead of me, but of course when people are popular, other people have to rebel. it's human nature and also human stupidity. look at britney spears and pamela anderson both popular as hell, and people just say the stupidest shit about both of them and yet CONTINUE to wank of to them.

because their friends did it and they want to feel cool:
yeah, people are influenced by idiots. either that or they're chicken shit and are afraid of what will happen if they don't go along with the next trend--to diss anyone superior to them.

the other ones are self explanatory.

get a clue.

yes, ya little fucks. i gave you your 5 minutes of fame upon my page, feel very happy for it won't last. i don't have anything against any of you, i really could care-less what goes on in your sick lives. but i just felt the need for people of my generation to be on the look out for people like you that don't know when to shut the fuck up, when you dont know anything of what your talking about half the time followed by obnoxious very annoying little idiot faces that you make after your rambling to make yourself feel like you got a point across.

screw you.

lovinglust @ 2005-02-13T19:45:00

2005-02-14T00:47:08Z

wow wow wow

good and bad both

thats all i have to say

wow

lovinglust @ 2005-02-04T19:20:00

2005-02-03T02:19:22Z

join jessica and i's awesome community.

<333

lovinglust @ 2005-02-03T21:39:00

2005-02-02T02:39:11Z

today i did something brave, i stood up to my only fear: him. and i said that his services are no longer needed, i ended the friendship.

lovinglust @ 2005-01-30T20:35:00

2005-01-31T01:37:09Z

last night couldnt have been anymore perfect.

theres so many things im dying to tell you, i just dont know where to start, or how to tell you..

wendel, i miss you already. call me <3

lovinglust @ 2005-01-29T07:59:00

2005-01-29T13:00:59Z

im up early, what a surprise. not

have you ever wanted something so bad you cant sleep at night.

today gasparilla, today my giant boobs will come in use. HAHA

call my cell if your going and you want to meet up (8958816)

lovinglust @ 2005-01-27T20:25:00

2005-01-28T00:25:14Z

[01] Reply with your name and I will write something about you.

[02] I will then tell what song[s] remind me of you.

[03] Next, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.

[04] Last, I will try to name a single word that best describes you.

[05] Put this in your journal!

<33 wendel

lovinglust @ 2005-01-26T23:11:00

2005-01-27T03:10:50Z

Some are able to release grief far more quickly than others. However long it takes, it is always the re-connection with the power of the heart that moves you past grief. When the heart is enlivened again, it feels like the sun coming out after a week of rainy days. There is hope in the heart that chases the clouds away. Hope is a higher heart frequency and as you begin to reconnect with your heart, hope is waiting to show you new possibilities and arrest the downward spiral of grief and loneliness. It becomes a matter of how soon you want the sun to shine. Listening to the still, small voice in your heart will make hope into a reality.
r.i.p. cody dykes

lovinglust @ 2005-01-25T17:52:00

2005-01-26T00:51:19Z

i dont want anyone else to get the chance to realize how amazing you are

lovinglust @ 2005-01-23T15:10:00

2005-01-23T20:11:33Z

i will spend another year valentines - less </3

lovinglust @ 2005-01-21T09:01:00

2005-01-21T14:11:23Z

i seriously am the funniest person alive

ME: "how much did you pay for that chocolate milk nicole?"
NICOLE: "99 cents."
ME: "i could probably water down my shit and sell it to you for less."

hardy har har

jessica, fernanda shaved her arm pits for you

i havent updated in awhile, nothing really exciting has been going on

jerrell i know youll never read this, i still love you even though you are the biggest drama quenn, i love our 3 in the morning conversations about what i would do if you had sex with my mom, let me refresh your memory, I WOULD NEVER TALK TO YOU EVER AGAIN <333

lovinglust @ 2005-01-14T16:20:00

2005-01-14T23:20:21Z

today im faced with my only fear.....

him

lovinglust @ 2005-01-13T22:21:00

2005-01-14T02:34:21Z

theres more things i hate about you but heres just a few:

i hate the fact that you live so far, that you are almost out of reach
i hate the birthmark that resides on your top lip
i hate the rice in your eye, and the way it makes me stare
i hate that you make me open up, as if i have no secrets
i hate the spaces between your fingers that are filled with someone elses hands
i hate the fact that you try so hard to make me feel good
i hate that you have me waiting for your call, just to hear you say my name
i hate that you are so much like other guys, but your diffrent towards me
i hate when people think they know you like i do, because they dont
i hate you for making me feel this way
i hate that were friends and i dont want to be more
i hate the way you are so honest with me, and you take honesty to heart
i hate how your so protective over me with other guys, yet you wont call me your own
i hate that fact that i love you, and i love that fact that i hate you

js </3>

lovinglust @ 2005-01-12T16:54:00

2005-01-12T23:56:19Z

something that started out as innocent is turning in to much much more

do i stay or do i go?

lovinglust @ 2005-01-11T14:56:00

2005-01-11T21:58:06Z

carlys back, my dawgg!! hah

well ive pretty much given up, theres no use in trying, i dont want to be in a one sided relationship its obviously unfair..

so for awhile no more guys, they make me sick.. all of them..

im just going to enjoy the time i spend with my friends and not worry about having a significant other because they are all dead beats..

sometimes wanting what you cant have helps you find out that its okay to not have everything, because nothing is worth having with out trying.

ill be okay, in time..

lovinglust @ 2005-01-10T17:10:00

2005-01-11T00:11:51Z

HEY SENYO,

!@$##%%$#&^%*&^(&^%@!#%@!%@!^#&#^$

bet you dont know what that means, ha ha ha
JOKES ON YOU!!
i <33 you senyo!!

well im going to jrs house to tickle his back, the things i do for my friends..

it seems like an eternity yet its only been two days, wendel i miss you. call me..

lovinglust @ 2005-01-09T09:25:00

2005-01-09T16:26:17Z

had so much fun at the melting pot, i love my girls <33

well i just dont know anymore, its so hard..

nicole you can relate to me on this:
you live so far, and we barley talk
this needs to change or it will never work.

what to do what to do?

</3>

this is my friend jessica. shes single, sexy, horny, and ready for some action. her hour glass curves will send you off the edge, her bedroom eyes will make you melt, her plentiful B cup breasts will leave you wanting more, and her long smooth legs will make you so hott, if you are ntrested or strangly aroused by this contact me asap, hurry because soon might be to late..

lovinglust @ 2005-01-08T09:18:00

2005-01-08T16:19:53Z

yesterday i saw marshall, he gave me my christmas/birthday presents.. lets just say very very intresting.. he left today so i dont get to see him for awhile, thats my effing dawg, haha hes my savor really, i can always depend on him.

im about to go to centro with jess nicole and heather, i love urban outfitters, i havent been in awhile and im ready to spend the green, haha actually im a broke as a joke but owe, whats debt?

mark called me last night we talked for a long time, it was weird, o well hes an idiot serves him right..

tonight im going to the melting pot with my three best friends, nicole jess and holli (if she gets off work) but im excited because they place is good.

im going to try to see wendel tonight, so baby if your reading this, call me.. i miss you exoh.